Big, Green Monster

17/08/24

Big, green monster in a dream 

Exactly you, in reality 

I closed my eyes, so I wouldn’t see 

Told myself you really loved me 

Gave me away out of fear 

You couldn’t be good enough for me

A load of nonsense I believed

Fairytales and fantasies 

“He’s grown up, he has to be

He meant to harm but long ago

He was a child, not anymore” 

All the pain I had to ignore 

I wasn’t crazy, as you had me feel 

I made excuses religiously 

Prayed it wasn’t so bad as it seemed 

Back then, it would’ve demolished me 

The big, green monster wasn’t selfless 

It aimed to destroy, dominate, kill 

It shot to the heart, with ease and will

Played a game of lose to win 

Its silent smirk I saw concealed 

The big, green monster I tried not fear 

Much as it pained to see it through 

Love was never coloured blue 

The only fairytale that was true 

Was the one, deep down I always knew

The big, green monster in a dream 

Is the you that’s haunted me